time passed so damn fast!!

okie i must agree with this now, time passed so damn fast!!!

i'm now sitting in a bistro (not pub) located in tanah rata, cameron.
It's a western restaurant upstair of a shop, the food is nice, but not big portion enough..lol
Environment here is super nice, hav a bar and i start imagining a pretty girl flaring there, though, there's no pretty girl, no flaring, onli a palm cute girl as the waitress..
they play chinese songs here, nice songs, this is the 1st time i eat here, and i love this place already..

My training is not bad at all, i got all management job, and they do teach me alot, didn't bully me (as long as u must know how to marajuk and manja manja also lar). Anyway, the GM of heritage cameron wasn't good, the hotel hav about 70 over staffs, and there's onli 2 malays who will listen to her and be gm's pets. I dun think there's over 70 staffs anymore as there's too many ppl resigned..>< There's disaster every department struggeling not enuf staffs. But then, the business wasn't good though so its still okie. So far, i still like it, cuz i felt i'm usefull there that i could help alot(not considering the salary is only RM100 per month and i needed to stay in a self rented apartment with 2 of my frens which cost RM200 each per month which mean i dun earn but still hav to pay)

thats about my training, lets talk about a book/novel i juz read. named where the rainbow end.
Its really nice, different concept of the normal novel. It was actually each and every page about letters, text msges, emails, phone call, chat rooms and all about communicating. The novel is about the girl Rosie and Alex was good frens since they were five, communicating through paper slips in class. Story go on by each gettig older, pleasant and unpleasan of life, each got married and divorsed, and remarried, they didn't get together bacause of faith and live, till d end, they've realized they were in love and wanted to be together, but still, they could only b together after yrs, when they're 60s.
Well, i was kind of placed myself in that Rosie part, so heartbroken reading through all, and i do really envy Rosie, for being such independant and strong..
I felt old now, really..because i've bean reading the letters since they were only 5, and till 60. How can i not feel old now? i think time pass really fast. Remembering i was struggeling study burning mid night oil at night for pmr, then spm, den diploma.... i wonder the next time when i remember, i'll feel much older...

I dun wish to miss any good opportunities in my life, i felt this way, because Rosie and Alex has missed out so damn many chances for getting together, and fate made them apart and go on with life..

Oh shit i felt weak..i really felt week...i cant c my future now, i dunno where i should go, i dun hav 1 to depend on, i haven found my mr. right, i still didn't find any man that i'm interested with and have those special sparks with...i dunno what shall i do and where shall i go for training after my degree course, i dunno whu shall i go with and i never know where i belong to!!

Save me help me pls, cross ur fingers and wish me luck, show me the lights in my life pls....